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He Doesn’t #Love Me
We had an agreement.
No catching of feelings.
All was well for a while, but I was kidding myself. Not only did I violate our agreement, but I had fallen hard. Unsure if he felt the same, I dropped subtle hints.
One drunken night, he finally gave me an answer.
He didn’t feel the same.
Devastation left me confused and heartbroken. So many futile attempts to make sense of the situation. Feeling exposed, I turned to music to help me sort through my emotions.
After several sleepless nights, I realized that no matter how many questions I asked, the answer was going to be the same. He wasn’t going to love me back and I was going to have to deal with that.
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#Love Past the Argument
We loved hard.
When we argued, it felt like our mission was to hurt the other. We never stayed mad at each other long, maybe two or three days.
This wasn’t a petty argument.
His words were hurtful. Each syllable felt like rubbing alcohol being rubbed onto an open wound.
I loved him too much to stoop to his level. He needed to know what happens when you hurt someone you love.
His phone calls and text messages were ignored for for days.
Three weeks passed before I finally decided to listen to his voicemail. Lots of begging and apologizing. On the last voicemail, he says he’s going to let the song speak for him.
The fear of losing that person that you love the most puts everything into perspective. Brings it all back to what really matters in life.
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Fall in #Love with Me
I was so reluctant. My last relationship left me broken and skeptical. While I knew that you were special, I needed time to get reacquainted with myself. He understood, promising that he would be patiently waiting.
Yeah, okay.
We occasionally met up for dinner. You had a way of subtly letting me know that falling in love wasn’t a bad thing.
Love isn’t supposed to hurt.
Finally I gave in and I’m forever grateful that I did.
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Love #Love
My first serious relationship. We were SO into each other. Perhaps it was young (dumb) love, but I really felt like we could be forever. One day, he made me this mixtape CD. While there were a lot of songs that musically spoke for him, one song in particular stood out.
When I first heard this song, I was stunned. I knew he cared about me, but I had no idea his feelings were so strong. Actually, I don’t think either of us knew this relationship was going to get this deep. You date someone, knowing that it probably won’t last, then find yourself in love.
It happens.
Don’t worry about the end.
Love #Love.
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Let Me #Love You
He confided in me.
Things weren’t going well. She didn’t appreciate the little things he did for her. Bouquets of flowers being randomly delivered to her job and the hair/nail appointments paid in advance. All he wanted was a simple “thank you”. Not too much to ask.
It never happened.
Feeling unappreciated, the flower deliveries started to wane. There was pain in his eyes when he realized he was no longer in love with her. It killed me to see such a good man go through this. It took everything in me not to grab him by the arms and yell, “I’m right here! I’ll never take you for granted. Let me love you.”
Those words were never spoken aloud. I spent years wondering what could have been. What if he gave me that chance to love him the way he deserved.
What if?
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Friends Surrender to #Love
Imagine being friends with someone for years. The two of you are extremely close. Those around you swear that there’s more to the friendship because you both are so in tune with one another.
The lines become blurred. You don’t see each other the same way anymore. Can’t really pinpoint when and why this is happening but you know something is pulling you both in.
It is in this moment that you realize that you’ve fallen in love.
So many thoughts.
What if he/she doesn’t feel the same way? But what if he/she feels the same? Where do we go from here? Can we go back to being just friends? Is it worth possibly losing a friend if this doesn’t work out?
Despite the uncertainty, your conscious wants you to do one thing: Surrender.