#SorryNotSorry

Sorry Not SorryI say what I mean and mean what I say. Oftentimes, my words have a tendency to offend, which isn’t my intention. In the past, I would apologize for being harsh just to make the person feel better.

One thing I’ve learned in recent years is for me to be happy, I have to stop apologizing to save face. Now, when someone tells me they didn’t like what I had to say, I say to them, “Sorry, not sorry.”

It’s my way of acknowledging that I may have upset/offended you, however, I’m not apologizing for what I said because I meant it.

Everyone isn’t going to like me. That’s cool. I promise you, I lose no sleep at night knowing that folks don’t care for me. As long as there are people out there in the world who understand where I’m coming from, that’s all that matters.

#SorryNotSorry

 

Who Are You Living For?

Live Your Life For Yourself

I used to live my life valuing the opinions of others. Each decision I made, I would ask myself “What would _____think about this?” I hated to disappoint those that I cared about.

Eventually, I didn’t consider what I thought when I made decisions. As I’m writing this post, I’m thinking about all the opportunities I missed out on.

Not only did I miss out on opportunities, but I was unhappy. Once I became unhappy with my life, my thought process changed. If folks don’t like the decisions I make, that’s not my problem.

You can consider the opinions of others, but the key word is consider. The moment you forget that you matter is when you’ve lost yourself. You can’t afford to do that

Live your life for you and you alone.

 

My Thoughts on Fear

FEARWith the end of the year fast approaching, I figured that I better work on my goals for 2015. When I reviewed the goals I made for this year, I realized that a lot of them weren’t accomplished.

Why?

Fear.

I’m a planner. It’s difficult for me to step out on faith, not knowing the result. That’s why I’m stuck where I am. For me to make these goals happen, I must focus on completing the tasks, versus worrying about the result.

Worrying about the results is irrelevant if you don’t put in the work. Fear will cripple you IF you allow it to do so. Success requires that you fight your way out of the box that fear puts you in.

Are you ready to fight?

 

 

 

 

Back to Center: Update 2.5

It’s been a year since my last update. I apologize for the delay. Life happened and I slowly started gaining all the weight I lost back. I got discouraged and began embracing sugar again.

Totally fell off the wagon.

I try not to eat a lot of sugar. However, my weakness has always been sugary drinks. I still don’t drink soda (too much of a trigger), but I was drinking juices and sweet tea like crazy.

Yeah, it tasted good, but my stomach was getting bigger by the day.

Weight tends to accumulate in my stomach and boobs. While having big boobs is mostly a blessing, excessive belly fat is not. Especially when diabetes runs in my family. So when  my weight slowly began to creep up on the scale, I had to pull my shit together.

It was time to cut the sugar, specifically the sugary drinks. I drank my last glass of lemonade around the beginning of October. Using MyFitnessPal to document my weight at that time, I’ve been weighing myself regularly. Check out my progress in the chart below:

Weight Nov 2013-Nov 2014

 

Insane right? Especially when you see the drastic increase from this time last year. My current goal is to reach 160 pounds. Once I get there, I will make my next goal. I haven’t started exercising yet. Focusing on kicking this sugar habit is my main priority.

I hate sugar.