The Recovering Pessimist

Helping pessimists see the bright side of life without losing their "half empty" roots.

Terminating #Love

Feb
24

We were friends that spent years denying the underlying feelings between the two of us. Finally, after much consideration, we decided to go for it.

Embarking on this unfamiliar journey with him riddled me with anxiety. In theory,  things could go splendidly and we’d live happily ever after. On the other hand, reality reminds me that there’s a 50% chance that we could crash and burn. Not to mention that once the relationship ended, the friendship could very well end too.

Reality won.

Our relationship endured some really tough times. Over time, I began to see him more as my friend than my lover. I couldn’t suppress how I felt about him any longer. He needed to know.

We’re better as friends than lovers.

He fought so hard for the relationship. Promised that we could make this work. It was too late, my heart had already checked out. In the end, the relationship doesn’t matter if the friendship suffers.

#Love: A Musical Retrospective

Jan
31

Image via flickr.com

When I decided to do a writing challenge for February, I didn’t want to do the expected. February is synonymous with love. Like other retail holidays, stores are abundant with the red and pink packaging of goods. The card aisle  is abundant with “I love you” decorated in glittery hearts.

I know I’m not in the minority when I say that all of this is sickening.

Love isn’t all happiness and good times. Yes, that’s great but it’s so much more.  It’s dark. It’s painfully regretful. It’s an open wound. This is what I wanted to focus on. The beautifully dark aspect of love. Once I decided on that, I felt the need to deliver the message in a unique way.

This is where music comes into play.

For the month of February, all posts  (with the exception of Wisdom Wednesdays), will consist of memories from my romantic life and a corresponding love song.

Ladies and gentlemen, I present to you Love: A Musical Retrospective. Enjoy!

Beautiful Sadness

Jul
24

Behind the dimpled smile

Past the contagious laughter

A flicker of sadness rests in her eyes.

Anxiety agitates her stomach

Stress dances on her spine

Pride won’t show it

Alone, she cries.

Fear and worry flow hot

Down her cheeks.

Weight slowly lifting

From her burdened shoulders.

A beautiful sadness revealed

A dimpled smile and contagious laughter.

But no amount of tears

Can remove that flicker of sadness from her eyes.

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